The Words I Want To Say

I don't know how people usually do, so I'm gonna do it in my way.

It begins with: Happy New Year!

If this is where it stops, I can expect to hear exactly the same words from you. In fact, it is quite attracting to me to stop here and make it sounds like this is some kind of joke. However, I don't want to lie to myself anymore.

God knows how long will it take for me to let you know about it. If I have your personnal email address or your icq/msn no.(only if you have one), I shall send these words to you right now. But the fact is I don't have it and also, I am not brave enough to tell you face to face.

It had been about one and half years since I met you. There is a little if not none progress in our relationship and certainly it is not going the way I wished for. I knew that is because I haven't put in enough efforts......well, although it may not come to your attentions, I did try to date you for serveral times...... Thus, at this moment, I am still one of your hi & bye friends.

For the incoming year, I wish, I could have more chances to get close to you, to know better about you.

自尋煩惱

從那天晚宴回來, 無謂的猜想總是在我腦海里揮之不去
到底是單純地出於禮貌的舉動, 還是有含意的暗示呢
如果是出於禮貌, 那又是對誰都會做的行為, 還是僅限於被承認的朋友呢
然而一切猜測也只是無謂的, 徒勞的, 結果總是無從得知....

婚禮

今天是Anna的婚禮, 是我所參加的第四個婚禮
第一個跟第二個我所參加的婚禮, 都是中學老師的, 都在教堂行禮, 都沒有去婚宴
第三個, 是中學同學的, 男女雙方都是同學, 只去了婚宴, 沒有去觀禮
Anna的婚禮, 倒是我第一次是婚姻注冊處觀禮, 也是四個新娘中, 唯一一個在婚宴上喜極而泣
覺得好感人, 真的感受得到她內心的喜悅。